poured out

"Trust in Him at all times, O people;

Pour out your heart before Him;

God is a refuge for us. 

Selah."

-Psalms 62:8

It has been a trying month and some change for our family. As I shared previously, my husband lost his job (and he is the sole provider).  We've also faced the joy and the challenge of a brand new baby boy and adjusting to life with a school-age child, a toddler and a newborn.  Then, this past week... we all got hit with a nasty devious and I'm quite convinced demonic stomach bug. 

Every part of my stamina was tested as Daddy, toddler and Mommy all got sick.  Newborn is thankfully immune, yet still demanding.  I was absolutely empty on every level. So I snuck into my secret place, my quiet place to search Him out and pray... the shower. 

Yes. My now most sacred place to soul-search alone and without distraction is indeed the shower. Such is the life of a mommy and wife. 

As I began to pray and listen to His Word (thank you Bible.Is app!) Psalm 62 was impressed upon my heart. So I still myself and listen. 

"My soul waits in silence for God only; from Him is my salvation... My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken." (Ps 62:1,2b)

I will not be greatly shaken. Then, again...

"My soul waits in silence for God only, for my hope is from Him.  He only is my rock and my salvation." (Ps 62:5-6a)

It is so easy to become entangled in the worries of today.  It is so easy to forget that His mercies are new every single morning.  It's so easy to forget that there is grace for whatever today brings.  Grace is a lifestyle and I'm currently living it. 

Then verse eight caught me dead in my tracks. 

Trust in Him at all times.  Pour out your heart before Him. 

That was all my weary soul needed to hear.  I am to pour my heart before Him because He is my refuge.  He is my safe-place, my Haven. My heart was intrigued, so I looked a little deeper.  And come to find out "pour" in the original text was the word "shaw-fak.'"  

It isn't just a neat pouring like we're pouring pancake batter onto a pan.  It is "to spill forth (like blood), to expend and to intensively sprawl out."  It is an absolute and complete throwing of my heart on to who He is. 

He is worthy of my heart.  He has won it through Calvary's cross and Resurrection's victory.  He is worthy of my heart and yours. 

So today, I want to invite you to spill forth, expend and intensively sprawl out your heart before the One who created it, who knows it better than you do.  Whatever is plaguing you, wherever you need grace and whatever is breaking you at this very moment... Just spill it forth and pour it out before the LORD.  He is truly a safe place, a refuge and a Haven.