I wanted to take a little bit to update you all on life. Our life.
The last nine months have been quite the blur and stressful. It seems I was incapable of adjusting to life with one more. The storm is passing though and I can see things from a different perspective.
Life is still hectic. Liberty is still feisty and very much a toddler. Justice is mobile, curious little babe and my days are still filled with dirty diapers, snot, occasional spit up and overall insanity.
One thing struck my heart throughout this season though.
Part of my burnout was the fact that I didn't know how to spend time with God in this new, busier season. I attempted to make it look like it did when I mothered one, or when I was newly married or even when I was single, and every single time, I came up short, disillusioned and frustrated (seems I get frustrated a lot, huh?).
I believe part of having a Mary Heart in our Martha seasons is remembering that God has ordained this season and that time spent with Him will look differently based on our season. Comparing ourselves to other moms is not helpful in any measure, and comparing ourselves to ourselves in different seasons will only bring disillusionment.
Mommy, be encouraged! Jesus designed you to mother your little arrows at this very moment and He has given you enough grace to draw nearer to Him even during this craziness! Remember that your quiet time and seeking of His face has no formula. It doesn't have to be in the morning for an hour, following a Bible reading plan on YouVersion (though praise Jesus for those!). It can be throughout the days, moments quietly "stolen" between you and your Heavenly Father who desires you. Connecting with the Lord during these busy seasons has nothing to do with a formula or checklist and everything to do with the posture of our hearts.
Don't get lost in the tools that are meant to usher you to our Father. Don't get lost in the "have to" and "shoulda, coulda, wouldas" that you forget we love a Merciful God who delights in taking our weakness and demonstrating His strength. Please Mommy, be encouraged! Jesus is in the midst of your mothering, your dirty diapers and toddler tantrums. He is in the midst, longing for one single heart glance in His direction. That is all He needs to draw you near.
Draw nearer to Him today Mama, and draw strength from a Heavenly God who gives you grace for present trouble and glory for eternity!