I was reading my latest read (HIGHLY recommend it) this afternoon during nap time. I'd decided the dishes and laundry could wait. I was craving the eternal and I wanted to just sit at His feet.
"Those who desire to be great must become servants. (see Matt 20:20-28)" she wrote.
And as if my heart wasn't getting wrecked enough (I have so much revelation making my heart soar right now that I can hardly contain myself), it hit me like a ton of bricks. This phrase wasn't even in the 10 mile radius of the main point of the chapter, it was just a gentle reminder thrown in there that awakened me to a beautiful perspective on my mundane life of diapers and dishes and everything else I disdain.
Motherhood is a gift from Jesus to work inside of us eternal greatness and rewards. Jesus has given me this very daunting, very difficult and sometimes very discouraging role of motherhood as a means to draw me nearer to Himself. Jesus Christ wants this mama to spend eternity with Him... in very close proximity. He desires to reward me forever with good and perfect gifts that I can in turn cast at His feet forever. So, He gives me Grace, Liberty and Justice. He whispers of the possibility for more, and He tells me that for my heart to be fulfilled in being great, I must become a servant of them and the man He has chosen to yoke me with forever.
I don't have to fear that I'm not going to change the world or do something mighty. I don't have to worry that I'm losing myself in these kiddos. I don't have to be concerned that no one sees me anymore because I'm knee-deep in laundry and hiding out in the nursing room with Justice, or that no one thinks I'm oober spiritual because I'm serving my family at home instead of somewhere else*. I know that Jesus delights in this secret, hidden, broken service I offer to my family. He gifted it to me for the purpose of eternity.
Motherhood is a natural escort to servanthood. We cannot be good or even average mothers without an element of service for our children. Becoming a mother naturally demonstrates the face of Jesus' service. He nurtures and cleanses us. He speaks tender mercies and practices discipline for our disobedience. He feeds us the eternal bread of life and He comforts us when our fears seem greater than we can carry. He serves us through love as we serve our babes through love. Our way is incredibly broken, His is significantly higher and most definitely perfect. Nevertheless He has gifted us with motherhood as a means to draw out His virtues and grace in our hearts so that we may be His friends and close to Him forever!
So today, I want to challenge you Mama. When you are changing your toddler's poopy diapers again and are flooded in the laundry list your husband left you with (no pun intended-- though add the pile of laundry you have yet to fold and tuck away), remember that Jesus is using this to build meekness and lowliness through service in you. And He's doing it, not because He's a cruel God who doesn't care, but because He's a good, loving God who wants you near Him, forever!
*Please note: I believe every family is different, so I am not saying that my story will mesh with yours in that staying home is the only way. I am saying that this is my calling and that regardless of how you serve your family, the point is, that we serve.